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 I guess, this is really my gloomy rant space.

I honestly don't know why the sad feeling doesn't go away. I am so easily offended by my husband lately. I miss his touches, but when I faced him, I just feel annoyed and sometime secretly disliking him. My heart really broke by his words and actions.

In all honesty, I hate his short-tempered and impatient attitude. He always rushed me to do things. He easily get upset if I lambat basuh berak anak. His sighs of dissatisfaction, it is very stressful for me. 

But yet, I have never shown him my true feelings. I never told him, "Can you please be patient for once?" Or "Can you please wait for 5 minutes?", not even the smallest reply such as, "Not now." Every time he commented things, I do without complaining. I felt it is better to do as he wants rather than arguing. But, that is not a good communication, right? I have been holding back my feelings while he freely expressed his feeling without respecting my own feeling. 

I'm tired. I don't know how long can I stay like this.